blithebereavement:

I’m going to go away for a little while.

Family stuff and personal shit and stupid, stupid emotional drama is really breaking me right now.

I feel like I’m inching closer to this line. And when I cross it I’ll do something I’ll really regret.

I just need to get away for awhile. I need to be alone with my thoughts and try to work out who I am and what I want and where the hell I’m going.

I’ll probably be on twice a day, if only to check up and make sure everyone is okay and healthy and everything. But I won’t be posting and I might not reply to messages so don’t freak out.

I’ll probably be back by Monday or so. I don’t know.

Um. I’m really sorry about this. I know it’s super dramatic and stupid. Just don’t worry about me.

Also it sounds like the inside of the wrist doesn’t hurt TOO bad for a tattoo so I think I might go ahead and get it soon. The problem is I use my hands actively at work so I’d have to bandage it well.

But I think seeing Eat, Pray, Love would actually help me a little

Just as a reminder of what is important to me.　

Okay im going to bed

it got really really late

and i have to work until late shift tomorrow

oops

Thanks to everyone for putting up with me. You won’t see much of me the next couple of dayas.

But I love you guys. Thank you

Also lesson learned never drinking THAT booze again holy crap

Also drinking alone while depressed probably wasn’t a wise decision.

My blog looks bright now.

It’s kind of making me happy.

This is what my heaven looks like.

webbyghost:

blithebereavement:

webbyghost replied to your post: Also I did get everyone’s asks and im saving them…

get help, darlin’.

I’ll try. Shrinks are expensive though. Bleh. Maybe I’ll see if I can find one who will let me pay them straight…just one session. Out of my next pay check or something. I don’t know. I just know I need to do something.

Good. It takes a certain amount of strength to allow yourself to seek help, and I am so proud of you for being able to do that.

Yeah…I um…I had a really bad experience with some shrinks. When all this shit with my father went down me and my siblings were forced to see five different shrinks in a span of two years.

And all but one he paid off, so no matter how much we screamed or cried or begged they didn’t hear us.

So I just sort of lost faith in all that.

But i dont know

I just need to do something.

And I’d really liek to not have to involve my family. My mom would freak the fuck out.

Thank God I don’t have to work until 3pm tomorrow.　

HAHAH HOLY SHIT I ACTUALLY GAINED A FOLLOWER AFTER ALL tHAT

I don’t know who you are because Tumblr is stupid

but you are my 200th follower

and I love you

get help, darlin’.

I’ll try. Shrinks are expensive though. Bleh. Maybe I’ll see if I can find one who will let me pay them straight…just one session. Out of my next pay check or something. I don’t know. I just know I need to do something.