I’m going to go away for a little while.
Family stuff and personal shit and stupid, stupid emotional drama is really breaking me right now.
I feel like I’m inching closer to this line. And when I cross it I’ll do something I’ll really regret.
I just need to get away for awhile. I need to be alone with my thoughts and try to work out who I am and what I want and where the hell I’m going.
I’ll probably be on twice a day, if only to check up and make sure everyone is okay and healthy and everything. But I won’t be posting and I might not reply to messages so don’t freak out.
I’ll probably be back by Monday or so. I don’t know.
Um. I’m really sorry about this. I know it’s super dramatic and stupid. Just don’t worry about me.
Also it sounds like the inside of the wrist doesn’t hurt TOO bad for a tattoo so I think I might go ahead and get it soon. The problem is I use my hands actively at work so I’d have to bandage it well.
But I think seeing Eat, Pray, Love would actually help me a little
Just as a reminder of what is important to me.
Okay im going to bed
it got really really late
and i have to work until late shift tomorrow
oops
Thanks to everyone for putting up with me. You won’t see much of me the next couple of dayas.
But I love you guys. Thank you
Also lesson learned never drinking THAT booze again holy crap
Also drinking alone while depressed probably wasn’t a wise decision.
get help, darlin’.I’ll try. Shrinks are expensive though. Bleh. Maybe I’ll see if I can find one who will let me pay them straight…just one session. Out of my next pay check or something. I don’t know. I just know I need to do something.
Good. It takes a certain amount of strength to allow yourself to seek help, and I am so proud of you for being able to do that.
Yeah…I um…I had a really bad experience with some shrinks. When all this shit with my father went down me and my siblings were forced to see five different shrinks in a span of two years.
And all but one he paid off, so no matter how much we screamed or cried or begged they didn’t hear us.
So I just sort of lost faith in all that.
But i dont know
I just need to do something.
And I’d really liek to not have to involve my family. My mom would freak the fuck out.
HAHAH HOLY SHIT I ACTUALLY GAINED A FOLLOWER AFTER ALL tHAT
I don’t know who you are because Tumblr is stupid
but you are my 200th follower
and I love you
